So it's been almost a year since I've wrote on this blog! Ugh I have to say I wish it went differently, but honestly like everyone around me I struggled with the pandemic. I struggled restructuring my life around having my kids and husband home all the time. It's wonderful, but at the same time the moments of pure silence are limited!
As you would expect slowly, I just didn't have the passion or strength to keep writing. I was also dealing with fractured care and my ex-doctor who I feel obstructed my ability to get treatment. Those moments I turned to other projects of mine. I needed something to take my mind off of everything. It's weird saying that too by the way. I'm 33 and I never thought I'd be here running a business definitely didn't think I'd be attempting to open another. Yet here I am! Yes, you heard me right that's what I've been doing in my spare time instead of writing.
I wish I could say I'm rich and successful, but that's just not the case. It's a year into my business I'm still struggling to make consistent profit and I'm not where I want to be. So I had to reassess and consider that changes had to be made. I'm not lying when I say I've spent $20-30k on my business probably more. I'm lucky to have been blessed with a financially literate husband so we've always had amazing credit. That is what I've had to rely on because one thing they don't tell you about business loans, they are impossible to get if you are just starting! Every single creditor I went to refused me because my business wasn't turning $10,000 a month! Not kidding that seems to be the minimum for the ones I tried. I applied to about ten of them. So all of that debt is personal debt we are carrying! Anyways, part of that reassessment has lead me right back to one of my passions, writing. My business plan while it brought in some money during this pandemic it's still like any month I could go down so I wanted something more stable, more reliable, and easier to scale...digital products is where that is at! So I'm currently designing a course for people with chronic illness on how to manage fatigue and live a quality life. I'm also designing my own planner, videos, course materials, and looking to expand into other forms of activist work and/or life coaching.
I'm excited and terrified, but like I told a friend yesterday reinventing ourselves over and over again is natural. It took me a long time to learn that failure is an important part of success. You have to practice to succeed, it doesn't just happen. It's okay to out grow our careers, people, things, and whatever else. Every mistake has been an opportunity to learn and so every mistake is necessary to build who I am. I can't wait to show you all what I've been building! I'll share a sneak peek soon(tm)!